Wednesday, July 18, 2007
so this is the sound, of 40 hearts pounding.
( i know i've got stubs for fingers): )HAHAHA LOOK AT FELI, SHE LOOKS EXTREMELY HAPPY. HAHAHHAHAHA. FELI RHYMES WITH HAPPY. I REALISED. HAHAHAHAA. say 'thingy' like 'thin-GHHYYYYY' so its like.. thinghey or thingey or thingi. you know thingi? your indian mother's name? yeah just like that. you know, i know that sometimes i speak very smartly and sometimes everything that comes out of my mouth are rubbish. sometimes i wonder if i've got split personalities, like that hero from heroes. yanno? does that make me a hero too? &mmm, i realised that i really laugh at everything. both jonathans from my class say i laugh at everything. i need to stop. but with felicia around i dont know how. have you seen how retarded she can be? or how short weiling is? or how yu song reminds me of cheekiang?!??!?!?!
or maybe its just me.. maybe im retarded and highly disturbed by wandering spirits. HAHAA nah dont think so. i think maybe kahtien is. yup. definitely him. or her? it maybe? aiya im still trying to figure out.we're always worried about how our life will turn out. like if we're gonna meet the right people, stay on the correct path.. so we press for answers and inturn we ususally just end up messing up 'what was suppsoed to be'. everyone wants to know the ending of a great story. even if you hadn't already read it through. you keep telling yourself you hate spoilers but you know that a part of you is happy that you know what will become.
but i figured that if we hadn't cared so much or pressed life for answers and the things we want, most of the time, things will just slowly fall and settle in all the right places. the pieces of the missing puzzle will start to fit and maybe, thats what we call fate.
'things we lose always have a way of coming back to us, one way or another. even if it is in the most unexpected way.'
this welcome is gone, and i've waited long enough.